I spoke about being aware of the past yesterday, but thereâ€™s also a downside to that – being stuck in it. Sometimes I tend to think so much about the past and re-live those moments that I find myself in love with certain images and people. But, in reality, those people and images donâ€™t exist today as they did earlier. This leaves me with a gaping hole in my mind and one which I have trouble filling. Today was one of those days and so a downer. I wish I had taken care of the person who had always been the secret of my energy. I feel like I have aged 10 years in the last 2.